Like everybody, I've had a lot of pain in my life and I'm a work in progress. You must
have a true desire to see the world from a different point of view, and that comes with growing up. Walton Goggins

Monday, May 29, 2017

New Life New Me

I have live in Georgia for almost 4 months now and I am absolutely loving it. The warm weather is great, even though tornado warnings are pretty scary. I have traveled more this year than ever before. Of course moving 1201 miles away from home helps in that department. It has been quite an adjustment living in the South as opposed to New England. It was like moving to a completely different world. Moving here has changed my life in so many ways and for the first time in a very long time I actually feel like myself. A great deal of the stress and misery that once sat on my shoulders has been left behind. I have learned a lot about who I am and who I want to be. Life feels much more manageable now. This whole move has had some difficult moments but I wouldn't trade it for anything. I have started creating again since I've been here. I haven't art journaled very much but I have been crafting up a storm and am looking forward to selling my crafts. Something I have always wanted to do but I have never been brave enough to do before. I am having fun with it for the first time in what feels like in forever. Soon I will be posting my work so check back to see what I have been up to.

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Change is in the Air

It's been awhile since I have posted.  The end of 2016 was chaotic and emotional to say the least.  The holidays and the anniversary of Doug's death brought about an emotional whirlwind that I wasn't quite prepared for. I also made a huge, life changing decision.

I decided to move 1200 miles away from home.  I decided it was time for warm weather and a new start.  Time to create the best life possible for myself and my family, time to be happy.

I am a bit nervous though.  In all of my 40 years I have never traveled outside New England.  I have lived in the same city for 35 years.  I have lived on the same block for 11 years.  In this house for 6.  I don't really go very far from my comfort zone, and its time for that to change.

Back in November, Steve Harvey had a week long series on his talk show that he called 'Jump Week'.  It was all about taking risks and chances to create your best life, and having the courage and strength to do so.  Watching this series brought a thought that I had on the back burner to the forefront of my mind.  I decided to take the risk.

I have a laundry list of reasons why I want to go and why this just needs to happen.  Don't get me wrong, in some way Lawrence will always be home.  But Lawrence is turning into a very scary place and it is time to go. 

I must admit this past week has been rough.  It has been emotional and bittersweet.  Filled with quite a few 'last times' and alot of anxiety.  Not to mention a two day Fibro Flare mixed in for good measure.  It has also been exciting. 

Today I embark on my journey.  Today is the day I get to go on a road trip with two of my best friends and my youngest daughter.  Today my adventure begins.  I am off to warmer weather and a happier less stressful life.  A fresh start. 

For the first time in 40 years I am living my life for me.  I am creating a life that will make me happy.  No apologies, no regrets.